Torn

I'm in a state of confusion.... I confess I don't know anything about love.... or how to be in love.... how to return the love of others and how to give my love to the ones I care deeply for.....

Two nights ago...while spending my last nights in my room in Vanier... I tried so hard not to cry.... not to break.... not to let my heart shatter......


I want closure from my past.... So I can move on with my life.... so I can finally look out over the ocean....see the sun rise and know that he's better off now that we were just friends and that summer.... that 2004 summer..... was just a beautiful memory that I"ll treasure always.......... 许航哥，你还在想我吗？我在深夜里，再睁开眼睛的那一瞬间总是看到你的面孔。。。

I can't let you go.... can you let me?

对，你是我的战神。。。But then why aren't you there when i need you the most? We had known each other for almost our entire lives.... I thought we were meant to be.... but... like Romeo and Juliet.... it was not so....

I'm breaking..... who can save me from myself? please let me go.... so I can let you go.... We are continents away... lightyears apart.... I miss you....

I always realize everything too late......
我再说对不起也没有用了。。。