frustratinG

Today i killed my experiment - all the cells I have been growing patiently for the past week - gone... into the bleach bucket... i hate research.... really hate it! pipetting error my butt! i like my butt...

and tomorrow morning I have to do a presentation for SSRP.... just finished editing the last bit of my presentation... last minute? yep... and I thought I was gonna get this all together last weekend.... i hate research.... hate it...

and Brian *sigh...*

listening to David Choi right now... and the song "won't even start" just turned on -
i wish for the sun and the moon
don't know what'll happen w/me and brian

i feel like i'm lost again... frustrated.
i hate being like this



my heart beats at random intervals
arrhythmias?
weak heart?
shattering?
my heart have been broken before
but now, taped together and put on Styrofoam mattress - it's surviving

i have a heart that's still beating, loving, feeling
i want to be free
live
my
life
happily carefree stressfree lovingly tenderly excitingly wondrously
*sigh....*

i'll wrap my heart up tighter in it's own protection

TAKE ME AWAY!~~~*beyond*~~