为什么???

life is ...good sure why not... is not like i have much problems... school is fine... not that my marks are horrible.... friends are surviving... nothing/everything has changed....i found Alex again...i'm happy...then why do i feel like my world is falling apart? Everyday i'm on the edge of breaking down, and i feel like there's no one to turn to...no one...no one... no one...no one... no one...tears.
there's nothing to cry about, there's nothing to regret....my life has melted long ago...everything i put on the outside seems somewhat fake....i'm not all happy all the time...but no one know it...or that they have stopped caring...i push them away...i let them go... why?
i have 2 exams tomorrow...and a math quiz...don't really looking forward to any of it... i'm not the smartest kid in the world, and yet i try so hard...
i want to skip music tomorrow, 1st period. then i can just relax...not studying in the libary, just breath....but i can't cuz is IRRESPONSIBLE!fuck! i wish for once i can just skip a whole day of school and run to a corner of the world where no one will recognize me....where i can just live...


offically depressed....not that anyone i know reads this....