Not yet ready for L_0've

Today was wonderful. Not because of anything out-of-the-ordinary but because of my special bonding time with connie--it totally made my day :) thanks connie--you are a terrific friend and you have no idea just how much you have helped me along my journey of life... thanks a million

Now i can safely conclude (after our heart to heart talk) that i'm not ready to be in a relationship
I'm just too independent...
maybe after i meet the perfect guy....and wait for serendiperty+~*
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but i donno...ahh this is so confusing
but i do know that i'm a heartbreaker so if you want to keep your heart perfectly intact--stay away from me...

frikit...it seems that i can never truly have a normal friendship with a guy cuz they all turn out to like me in a way more than a friend

i hate it so much when it happens--it just ruins out friendship and things cannot bee exactly the same as before...

i miss the simpler times.....
but yeah... that's life for you.

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I also found out that i do actually like him (my nickname for him: 爆龙)

He's actually perfect--all that i need in a guy+~*except we can never be together...
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now i have finally figured out that i like 爆龙...things prob won't be the same between us....
the heartbroker becomes the heartbrokee

i hope i can still be his friend, but it'll take more effort this time cuz i have to hide my feelings (don't want to freak him out)
friends. that's my goal...

all i want is for him to be happy and if that's with some other girl and not me--i'm fine with it, really i'm fine.

i have to be more like that girl in 281 letters---sacrifice everything for the happinese of him. she's amazing...

向她学习!