Goodbye is such sweet sorrow...

okay EWC has been over for a week now...yet i still can't let it go and let it become a part of the past...i miss everyone so much still and i prob never gonna see more than half of those people again...

But now i'm at a friend's party...everyone is having such a good time...but some how i just can't enjoy myself--i know i'm the only one that makes myself sad and depressed...but some how i just can't cheer up...connie says that i'm too sensitive...and i am! I tried to tell her what was wrong--i actually don't even know what's the matter with me---but she doesn't get it! and it is all just so pointless and useless...i donno...coming to this party was a mistake--i should have just stayed at home (i'm not feeling the greatest today...)

I'm facing the world right now...staring reality in the face...but i don't have the strength to face it...i'm a coward.

I miss EWC even more now...cuz there i was free from this kind of feelings---i was free of people who doesn't appreciate for who i am... i miss EWC so much... BuT
Life

goes on

and I must face it, not hide from it and accept defeat! I am already brused and torn so i should just keep on fighting for that one moment of peace that belongs to me...