u never know how lucky ur until the things u cherish the most is gone

no one

that's who i have now....

I lost my best friend...
not in a car crush
not in a plane accident
not to anything
but
my ignorance nature....

will
is his name....

things will never be the same again...


seconds, minutes, days, month
pass
without a word..............
life is meaning-
less

energy drained out of my body...
can no longer be strong
sometimes i would be so exhausted from living
that i would slowly stop while walking
not
noticing the slightest difference in pace

life is a ocean
and we are the drains that cries out the drops
one by one
day by day
chain them together to wipe away the past
ignor-
ance

i sometimes wish that nothing has changed
i'm not an expert when it comes to guys
i sometimes wish that guys were simplier
i'm not someone who people should trust, befriend, love,
cuz i never return back

i am a coward
i deserve only this blog to talk to as my best friend





(The past meets the present...happiness meets pain...i hate this...and i want to end all of it..........soon/fast.
i am a coward
cowards doesn't deserve to live
therefore i don't either
i want to end it all tonight



















but i can't
i can't let my dad down
he is counting on me
i can't let my grandparents down
they are my childhood everythings
i love them so much
they...i live only for them

now.